I consider myself an artist who investigates painting by doing. I explore opposition within my art practice, sculpting realities through painting. I want to know how the painting functions and, through its limitations, can expand possibilities. My work is driven by the tension between chaos and control that, I find, moves every creative process. Each painting begins with unpredictable marks and actions, allowing disorder to take shape. When the chaos becomes overwhelming, I counterbalance it with precision, like a dance, a fight, a dialogue between forces. Through this approach, I can grasp the ungraspable and create an understanding for myself that rationality never could. Through abstraction, I find freedom from figural interpretation. I want to make the intangible tangible, and the overwhelming visible.
Initially, I approach my work as personal exploration, like a visual diary. The physicality of painting creates a fully immersive venture, where the creation of the painting becomes the making of an unseen world. The marks on the painting reveal time, pressure, and motion. Because of this, each layer and brushstroke captures the emotions and energy of its making. Evocatively projecting my personal experience into something that can be seen and felt by people outside the frame.
Through this dialogue, the work unfolds organically into the world at large, allowing me to navigate the unknown.
For this exploration, scientific tools can come in handy. The microscope and I are well equipped for the task. I was repainting paint pigments on a larger scale, using my mom's old microscope. Every day was spent in a deep focus, perfectly rendering something trivial. Now it is more about the experience of painting like that; looking through a lens. Zooming in, I uncover hidden life. Zooming out, I grasp vast, extensive landscapes. It reveals hidden worlds and structures within structures. When I traded perfection for perspective, I exploded. This scale stretches perspective, making the vast graspable. In both, the act of seeing transforms. What was once too small to matter becomes monumental, and what was too large to comprehend fits within a single frame.
